I really don't feel like celebrating my birthday since Lola's not with us anymore. :(
I was talking to Ninang last night and she noticed it too. Mom was the first one to experience a birthday without Lola. Among the apos, I'll be the first one to experience a birthday without Lola.
Lola gave us all one last birthday. She completed everyone's birthday before she left to a better place. Ninang noticed it. Whenever she'd implement a new rule on Birthdays, she'd start with the eldest...
The past week, I woke up crying. Twice. Why? It's funny really. I dream that I'm crying and I wake up crying. Dreams can seem so real right? Why did I cry? I dreamt about my Lola.
Yes, I still miss her very much each and everyday. I was really close to her...
It pains me writing this entry but it's my way of venting out and sharing it with you.
I thought that she'd give me an early birthday present with an Ateneo Championship but I'm hoping that she's just delaying it for a bit so I can pray some more :)
I didn't take a leave from work because of important things to do. Plus you get to see your friends at work who'll greet you. Hahaha.
2009 hasn't been a good year... Hopefully, it'll change on Thursday... I want the title that bad :( sigh... (Sorry UE... die hard talaga ako.)
Now, I'm looking back at the previous years and birthdays. They were awesome. Felt the love! Although it's a bit different because next year, dang! I'm a quarter century old!!!
Time's flying by way too fast... You have to live everyday to the fullest. Make your loved ones know how much they mean to you!!!
Anyway, I know that God has His plans. May His will be done.