This Tuesday, I have to tell you another Lola Cory story...
On the day I found out that she was diagnosed with cancer, it was the saddest day of my life. Even more than when she had passed. It was the day that I literally couldn't cry anymore because there weren't any tears that were falling. I used up all my tears and I was still crying! My eyes were swollen the next day. I took a leave from work the next day to spend time with my Lola. I was with my Mom and she told me not to cry in front of her... I didn't. I had to be strong for my Lola.
However, my Lola did see that my eyes were swollen... It was back in September that a friend of her told me that my Lola told her about that day. My Lola told some people that it broke her heart seeing me with swollen eyes... My Mom also told me that Lola would often ask her how I was. Even at that point she'd still think of others. She thought of how her apo was... That made me real sad...
It's been months and I still haven't moved on. I still miss my Lola very very much. The campaign has been keeping all of us busy but at the same time, we miss her words of wisdom, her patience, her faith, her optimism...
In my cellphone, my wallpaper is a picture of me and her... It's something I can no longer change. I made a decision that it would always be the wallpaper of my cellphone.
I just tell myself that Lola's in a better place now... She doesn't have to suffer anymore.
No one can ever take her place. In my family, everyone's stepping up to fill in that void. It can never be the same but at least all of us are loving and supporting one another.
I'm proud of my family. I'm proud of my name. I'm lucky to say in confidence that my grandparents were good people. They raised 5 wonderful children. They were awesome parents and great leaders.
Before I tear up... I'll say goodbye for now.
Keep the faith dear reader... Keep the faith. Mabuhay tayong lahat!